A Room With A View.....

black is back

2009-06-08T21:31:00.001+08:00

blogging is now officially back

Lost in Translation

2007-03-19T02:17:00.000+08:00

L & F
i just woke up after a long 3 hour slumber (for a guy of my physical delinquence this is refreshing enough)...for the longest time now i havent really wrote anything...i lived the life and stopped sitting the spot...i stepped up a notch from normality and did what every 25-up miler would...twas a change nonetheless and twas good...no great...looking at my last postings it has been ages from my last...and from this waking up i had the feel to write...the burden of things i must release even with this minute way...

ON LIFE NOW
the high school remininisce has endured a year...i love the idea and i guess it was an achievement that US masci buds had the fortitude and drive to at least keep in touch...although it has dimished a tad (following the rule of FAD), the meshing still is intact and will last much longer...i know...from this bond i had the pleasure of pursuing a lot of things, from personal growth to personal interests...i was able to again exercise and practice what i first learned in life...CONNECTION...i miss some things though but it does not matter, i always had this principle of moving on...of doing much finer things...the essence of sociality...keep it NEW... studies couldnt be much better...well sort of...i had the burden of handling 3 major subjects...no regrets but still i could have done better...still i could have had anticipated things...but i cannot return the eggs to the hen...whatever hahaha...wisdom sets in now and i am looking forward to the next step...reality on - NURSING really is a hard career (from my point of view as intern)...no room for error...no room for excuses...but it is rewarding to see people get better...it is...the demands may be taxing and sometimes unreasonable but the pay of health and wellness and happiness equals it...the people around me too are a great factor...to see individuals again make up for your lack motivates you...i love my new friends...i really do...they drive me to do things that ive done before and those that i havent...without frills...without hesitations...although less carefree, in that department i make up for them...these folks are the ones that pull me out of stress...

ON LOVE
not much to talk about...i never was a kiss and tell guy anyway...no point parading and carousing conquest...hahaha...as i said before BETTER things come out from things that dont work out...its just this that i fear...that i still love the life of living alone...that i can stand the barometer of relationship above one degree...opportunities abound...but for now im playing my cards...time to brave the winds...go with the best answer in the beauty pageant...WORLD PEACE!??...hahaha...endpoint : I HOLD ALL THE CARDS NOW AND NO ONE HAS A BETTER HAND...period... ON THINGS TO COME well for this i guess i have to LIVE THE LIFE again...and write on the parchment of daily living...

wala namang PERPEKTO

2006-09-02T12:19:00.000+08:00

ikaw ay nagdaramdam, puso ay nagdurugo
hindi mo yata alam, kung saan ka patungo
ikaw ay naliligaw, isip ay nalilito
ayaw mo nang gumalaw, hindi ka na sigurado

ikaw ay napupuwing, minsan nagbubulagan
mata ay nakapiring, daan ay kadiliman
ikaw ay nadadapa, napipilayan din
di makapagsalita, anong ibig sabihin

wala...wala naman...wala namang perpektong tao
ano ba ang epekto, kung meron kang depekto
ano ba ang epekto, kung meron kang depekto
ano ba ang epekto, kung meron kang depekto
ano ba ang epekto, kung meron kang depekto

ikaw ay nawawala, minsan ay nawawalan
di ka naniniwala, puno ng alinlangan
ikaw ay nanliliit, ligtas ka ba sa rehas
bakit ka nakapiit, bakit ka tumatakas

ikaw ay natatakot, parang walang hangganan
ang kirot ng bangungot, di mo makalimutan
ikaw ay nanlulumo, bilang na ba ang araw?
gusto mo nang sumuko, bundok ang nagugunaw

wala...wala naman...wala namang perpektong tao
ano ba ang epekto, kung meron kang depekto
ano ba ang epekto, kung meron kang depekto
ano ba ang epekto, kung meron kang depekto
ano ba ang epekto, kung meron kang depekto

ikaw ay inaanod, walang kalaban laban
tuluyang nalulunod, tungo sa kalaliman
ikaw ay nalulula, agad kang nahuhulog
bumabagsak sa lupa at biglang madudurog

ikaw ay nagdurusa, kaya pa bang tumagal
hindi na makahinga, lalo pang nasasakal
ikaw ay dumadaing, dala mo ba ay sumpa
para kang inililibing at ipinagluluksa

wala...wala naman...wala namang perpektong tao
ano ba ang epekto, kung meron kang depekto
ano ba ang epekto, kung meron kang depekto
ano ba ang epekto, kung meron kang depekto
ano ba ang epekto, kung meron kang depekto

wala...wala naman
wala namang perpekto
ano ba ang epekto kung meron kang depekto
wala namang perpektong tao...

Perpekto

2006-08-29T16:30:00.000+08:00

I’ve spent the last 2 weeks contemplating on a lot of things. It was a proper time to assess myself from a standpoint where everything is not on my plane and most of the factors affecting my life were meticulously scrutinized. On the plus side it is easier for me now to adjudicate and evaluate myself but on the negate side I never imagined that going back to a point of my past was this hard and unsettling. I have learned to become more “mature” and adult-like, something everyone expects from an individual in this stage of my life, yet the past haunts me…ive lost the touch to be more carefree and less responsible - things ive done in the past and still do occasionally. The awakening I had the year before sparked this new concept in life of mine but still I yearn for things that I had before. Kahit pala sobrang pag isipan mo nang mabuti yung mga bagay bagay na alam mong makaka apekto sa desisyon mo, mayroon pa ring mga “factors” na kahit kailan ay hindi mo aakalaing dadating at mas malaki pa ang magiging parte sa mga magiging desisyon mo. I have tried to anticipate every possible imaginable and unimaginable scenarios that would come up and considered all the consequences and risks of my CHOICE. Ika nga ng values ed prof ko ngayon, “ the nature of rationalization is the most essential part in building a value et al character, the choices an individual makes are strewn from his ability to make a sound choice, considering its other alternatives and determining the consequences of these choices.” Oo nga naman, ano pa silbi ng freewill ko kung hindi ko ito gagamitin ng mabuti at wasto.
Right now I’m in a stage where I can see clearly everything in the shortest time possible, di na gaya ng dati kung saan eh sobrang AANGATS-ANGATS talaga ako at mabagal. It pays dearly to be painfully slow and pathetic, to think too much and not do a damn thing about something. Kumbaga eh nag utak MASCI ako ulit, doing things in a blistering phase, with the confidence of promptness and without the fear of failure - basically just DOING IT (salamat pala kay prof bikoy sa allegory na to - it really is true about how us MASCIANS treat all things in our lives now). The sad thing about this is that people seem to misinterpret you a lot, to judge you more on your actions rather than your character (this is the truest essence of MALING AKALA). And the saddest part of knowing yourself is that you can never ask the people around you to be just cool and relax. That you are never too much critical and never commandeering, a little bossy yes but still you have to do the things you hate just to make yourself a little more serious. Ang hirap talaga mag TANGA TANGAHAN at kunwaring walang pakialam, because the stigma sticks with you if youre not careful with whom you show these traits of yours. Di nila alam na nakamasid lang ako at nakikiramdam, na mahirap maging WALANG PAKIALAM kunwari para lang hindi makasakit at hindi lumabas na makulit - ang problema nga lang mas naiisip pa ng tao na makulit ka talaga pag ganito ginawa mo. Siguro nga isa akong klase ng tao na madaldal at walang preno ang bibig sa lahat ng bagay pero sa puntong kelangan kong wag muna magsalita at maging sensitibo ng konti, ginagawa ko kahit pa pag isipan na ako ng kung ano ano ng mga taong nasa paligid ko.
Putang ina ang hirap talaga maging DO-ER. You appear most of the time to be either predisposed or dysfunctional, for the reasons that you appear to be not using your head first when in fact you have premeditated all things possible. People tend to see you as IMPOSING and over-assertive, never the “big brother” you try to be, well, I try to project. I have never tried to be naturally patronizing of people, to say to them what they want to hear and make them feel what they want to feel. It was a big contradiction to my principle to take up MARKETING as my base career pero who more can know about these things than a person who sees both sides of the strata.

the plagiarist in me

2006-08-03T18:39:00.000+08:00

a shot at explaining why most of my friends are single

actually i posted this sometime ago i just don't get it how or why it was not posted.i have been contemplating why most of my friends are single. looking at them, they are eye candies, mature (i think), driven, motivated and all other qualities that most of us are looking for a partner but they are sticking to their status. i have been synching with some of them through electronic means and here are some of the best reasons inferring from our conversations....

1. most of them are at the stage of building a life-long career. everyone is just hell too busy, that is why the electronic conversation most of the time. in fact, most of them are asserting themselves in their businesses or companies they are working at and all are on their way to the top (God bless them on this). And therefore, the time for dates, etc. are instead focused onto overtimes, even on weekends.

2. life right now is a lot harder than 5 years ago, when most of them were still students. and now that they are on their toes trying to tie their own shoes, a life full of complications is hard enough to handle, more so with an excess baggage that you can take some other time. quoting a friend: "pucha ang hirap na ng buhay ngayon papahirapan mo pa dahil nagdagdag ka pa ng isang responsibilidad"

3. most of them are jaded little bitches and bastards who do not want to care anymore for the past took most of what they were holding onto. from third parties, to pregnancies, to trial-and-errors, most of them are shouting pain and grievances. (wish ko lang wag masyadong jaded, di ba?) so some are still healing while others are still hurt.

4. so since most of them are jaded, they are just waiting for the right person to come along, without even lifting a finger. in other words, nagmamahaba ng buhok. but in my personal opinion, they have all the right to do so.i feel sad kasi i was able to come up with a better one than this but lo and behold, for reasons only the internet knows, that entry was not posted in my blog.

--- share ko lang to sa blog ko...this is written by a co-blogger and a friend...RAF FELICIANO...galing hehehe...salamat pala sa permission to post this

what it really means

2006-08-01T00:47:00.001+08:00

disclaimer...this is fictional...well maybe not hehehe...this isnt personally for me...hehehe

damn it its raining again...why cant it be stopped? why cant one control it? does it want to be controlled? the past weeks ive been thinking about these things...sarcastic and ridiculous as it may sound, thinking about the mechanics of the phenomenon made me wonder if it is somehow connected to how one feels...earlier i was requesting a friend of mine to give me a topic to blog about, i set the idea as somewhat CHEERFUL (since i am feeling AFFIRMATIVE as of the moment and still do) but since MALAKAS KA SA KIN PARE, ill be doing this instead eventhough i dont feel writing it...ONE YEARNS WHAT ONE CANNOT HAVE...plainly from its description and simple logical analysis (ayan nagagamit ko na LOGIC ko hahaha) the line just written is etymologically known as OBSESSION...in this rational world "wanting someone na hindi mo alam kung makukuha mo" falls in the same category as that...locally it may be called PAGIGING MARTIR but considering the parameters of it (risking oneself to attain something that has no assurance whatsoever - if one gets it or not with the latter the higher probability) it cannot be even considered as a risk let alone a HEROIC BLITZ...love is a risk yes, and so is winning a fight or even a bet on your favorite team...people tend to be more inconsequential and less calculating when LOVE or MONEY or PRIDE is concerted...when this happens that is the time when LOSING or being at a LOST begins...the risk becomes a drive - not anymore the motivation that its supposed to be...kelangang MAKABAWI...kelangang HINDI MAHALATANG TALUNAN...kelangang ITAGUYOD ANG PRIDE...kelangang WALANG MASABI ANG IBANG TAO...no more personal contentment, just pitiful pride without direction...the FIGHT becomes a losing battle even before it starts...but considering all things there are outlets for one to win...if only one knew how to foresee them...sabi nga ni Sun Tzu...know when to retreat and learn from your enemy...RE-COMPOSE oneself to easily put it, it may be BUSHIDO shameful and worth a HARA KIRI but doing this is much better and less lethal...striking back after strategizing is the greates INVENTION man has made in the scales of personal attainment...

wanting someone na hindi mo alam kung makukuha mo is such a cliche, sorry for being blatant pare hehehehe...YOU SHOULD KNOW HOW, that is the key if ever you want someone in the first place...love has no natural course but yes it can be random and serendipidous...like an irrigation canal, if you dont know how to channel it then you wouldnt get any efficacy from it...you cant expect it to go your way without working hard for it...but if you WORKED hard for it and nothing really fruitful came out, then that is a sign...hindi kayo meant for each other...no more QUESTIONS...no more REASONS...and if one cant accept the happiness of own's supposed to be then that my friend is called OBSESSION...

LITANY OF A DYING BREED

2006-07-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since i last wrote, even attempted to create a personal entry (most of the last ones i did were political - for kuya manolo in his BLOGSITE and a couple for highlight write-ups)...i have become more of a tech writer again and less of the original creative pen that originally i am...now i feel doing this...i know its hard for some people to consider me serious, hereto SINCERE...i always seem to project a persona of a SOCIABLE-amicable...tying loose ends...negotiating truce...particulating whole truths and half lies...smiling on the next person and preparing to smile again for another...its a hard "WISYO" and no matter how i try to look different from my daily "jog" i still end up with the same potatoes...yes i may look like a BALL bouncing around people and making them feel good but nonetheless i still hide from the truth of anonymity...i never need accolades nor gestures that would make an ordinary person cringe with smug...i prefer simply to be silently adored (who doesnt) and not ASSUMED upon...never in my entire walk on this plane have I had an instance of fortuitous mention nor an assumption of a negate basis...yes i like to play around...i do things people usually find adhering and smooth...simple yet elegantly devised...just to bring the "other sex" into my fold...in these past few days i am voraciously ingesting an idea of romantic interlude...matagal na kong di napupuno eh...i finally found someone who does not evoke fear to me...i found someone i think i can see myself going STAYPUT and unFLINCHING...all of us have faults in our lives...the problem though lies with what happens next...how do you react?...is it hard to show that you care for me, to admit to me that you are going into the same road im taking?...sana naman eh hindi lahat ng babae MAKASARILI...thats the biggest disadvantage studs face at this moment...balik tau...

ps...the picture has nothing to do with the blog hihihihihi...

hating kapatid

2006-06-15T03:11:00.000+08:00

half the year...too long the time has turned and passed...now i am ready for something new...adjustments are hard, way too hard for someone like me who has adapted this way of life...being free, having no restrictions, clockhand at my palm, burning papers...it may be applicable to some people to afford to handle their time, but for others its the point of reverse...i dont owe people no shit and answer nothing unless the need...i dont need pity nor mercy and definitely no mulligan...i may talk too much crap, sometimes out of line or context, but by GOD i tell them in good taste...i am no fan of half-truths...i have the slightest of caution to mind those that hear me BITTER and WHINE...i dont care if they believe or care for me back...all i need is understanding...i am tired of wasting my time on people who cant fend for themselves, those people that depend on me to answer their every query...every move i make is calculated...whatever i tell i do but being the flexible being that i am, i can change my mind in a snap of a finger...i go for advantages and never those that would put me in jeopardy...that for me is the essence of risk, knowing that youll win whatever it takes...its in these past days that i noticed that new talent of mine - taking advantage of situations and realizing where i stand...

2006-05-19T11:27:00.000+08:00

GUTSON's 6

sick cycle carousel

2006-05-10T07:38:00.000+08:00

post haste...motto for the coming months...i have to increase torque on my personal machinery of cerebro and cardialysis...i cant afford to be slow anymore - too much is at stake...i will not wither away and accept defeat graciously, NOT MY STYLE...better to go down in flames fighting (mali man o tama) than accept my faith and have regrets in all eternity...i may end up a blundering HERO but at least a hero nonetheless...many a "masa" ride on the chances of my moves and strokes, from here-on out ill be doing this for mua' - no more influence and backstabbing...ive strobed down my drive to be people-friendly because frankly i hate the idea of thinking others first before yourself - such a cliche that ends up with you begrudged and malevolent...its me first now before you...i have to lower my shields of emotion too, i wish i could learn the intricacies of giving up pride and self-involvement for the precious possession of yielding to my heart's whim...i may be lazy, pathetic and most of the time indifferent but when i start to get down to business its always the same result since past times - I AM SECOND...SECOND TO NONE

"mahal kita...pero di mo lang alam"......

summer breeze...makes me feel fine

2006-04-12T02:47:00.000+08:00

Photobucket

2006-04-03T04:13:00.000+08:00

This is a test post from Photobucket.com

2006-03-19T03:21:00.000+08:00

HETO NA!!!....sa mga ka TROC ko po this is the final sticker...punta na lang kau sa groups for more info on it

BURGIS AMOGIS

2006-03-17T02:52:00.000+08:00

PAST IS PAST – lessons learned from recent history hasn’t really sunk into the “kukotez” of the Pinoy Masa…for the nth time we are experiencing mass hysteria frighteningly under our own radar…TAO bitching about how his life never changed and will never go for the better no matter who runs the country or the amounts of “progress” coming out…name-calling…”talangka-thinking”…force-selling…pseudo propaganda…irresponsible marketing…these and many more blockade the forward movement of the PILINAS WHEEL towards stability…going for the EASY BUCK has been the motto of most of us…gone were the days when people work for people and work works for the people…

looking at those times when former LEADERS of our country maneuvered the “timon” of SS PILIPINAS (though I have a bleak knowledge of it but basing it on materials I read and people I conversed with) we were better and more stable way back then…even in the time of Marcos during his first “half” of administration…one of my former professor expressed his opinion that the PINAS PROBLEM began after the MAKOY REICH…”nag unahan ang mga hinayupak na pulitiko na ipuwesto ang mga inutil na puwet nila sa upuan ng kapangyarihan pagka alis ni HITLA sa MAY LAKAN DYAN”…my prof was a staunch sideliner who never had the satisfaction of experiencing a great pamumuno (he was 64 and never in his class did I hear he liked any leader…with the exception of Abad Santos and Laurel during the Hapones Times kasi kahit papaano may ITLOG daw yung 2 para lunukin ang pride nila at isipin muna ang bayan bago ang sariling kapakanan)…it made me think a lot of times about those things that he said and somewhat found a streak of truth unacceptable yet genuine…

Cory was never a leader and Doy Laurel would never even make a better one…it was a no-brainer choice vox populi through popularity…honestly i would not pick Ninoy either (i admire his political will and spunk but never his administrative capability)…”never trust a Spit-Fire to lead a Squadron of B-52’s”…leadership cannot be justified all the time for it never was a right in the first place – it is a privilege given with a lot of strings and sacrifices attached to it…something Tabako, Herap and Gloya (gloria daya) never understood nor foresaw…

Tabako failed to alleviate problems and just threw the last bulk of PILINAS wealth (we did have it) to the “fires” of MASA POBERDAD…he loved to travel and cavort around his administration but never did he address the real PILIPINAS problems…his plan was grand but it did not materialize because he lacked an element of CAPTAINSHIP - culpability…no one questioned his plans nor his negotiations during his stay at the Pasig Palace…the reason why until now the MASA suffers from his back deal “inutility”(just paint the BASIC COMMODITY picture)…

Herap had the makings of a great leader and administrator (di nga…)…the MASA was on his side and most detractors never had the guts to lambaste him (dahil siguro nauna na yung Erap Jokes)…his problem came out when things got out of hand, when emotions became a weapon to chink his political armor…chavit was the progenitor of Herap’s demise, hindi kasi nya pinasaya eh so singson ratted out…unahan ko na kesa maunahan pa ko was chavit’s cry – pathetic but effective with matching pseudoambush ala paawa effect…the envelope became the catalyst and us students became the spark plugs (i remembered sticking my ugly mug a sticker of BUKSAN NA YAN and not sleeping waiting for sandwiches and tetrapack juices on the sidelines)…Herap had the BALLS but never the wits…he never had the control of emotion and gut-check…kaya ayun PANGINGILOG ang binagsak nya, touching but rightful…he chose to be honest at the wrong time…

and now GMA…ah yes the best of them yet…i now realize that Gloria may have a hearing disorder and too much of an imagination…eto nga yung pusta ko sa kahit kanino ngayon eh – kung natapos yung termino ni STRADA at nagkabotohan pagkatapos tingin mo kaya mananalo si ARROVO kung tatakbo syang LIDER PINAS???...no one is taking the bet yet and nobody cares really hahaha…to be perfectly honest i cannot think of anything to say about this INUTIL seat-warmer (taga init ng upuan pinuno ng MAY LAKAN DYAN)…take a case of a blatant madaldal duking it out in a debate with a HEARING IMPAIRED individual…senseless…all the rest i leave to you…

2006-03-17T02:48:00.000+08:00

wash and wear - sabi nga ni nato "PAGKATAPOS MAGLINIS MAGBIHIS"

im RICH beeyatch....

2006-03-10T15:15:00.000+08:00

this cussin' mo' fo' is currently the planet's funniest comedic hands down...racist or no racist his skits kick ass period...tang ina ang galing mag deliver at hindi mo maiisip na kahit pala seryosong topic eh pwedeng gawing joke kahit pa gaano ka sensitive...i love his skit on the NIGGA family where he gave a white all-american family a blackesqued surname...and his last one on doing a friggin about his life from 18 24 and 30 years of age was a fuckin gag...

watch chapelle show every WED sa JackTV 11:30pm...isama nyo na yung show ni john stewart

Nu Yir Revolution

2006-02-01T13:29:00.000+08:00

for the past 2 months i left my "mind" site hibernating...ayos di ba para kunwari may mystery effect sa kin ala rudyard kipling...what has traspired for that time period i have forgotten...yung dumaang holidays, milestones, historical etchoz whatever (seems like i caught the street homolic lingo hahaha)...it was replaced by mindless hours and days of watching Jay Leno and Conan O'Brian and finishing the chinovela Jewel in the Palace (corruption of the anime Cooking Master Boy - eventually the grandfather of the Iron Chef cooking show)...sad but true pero ika nga ni Dr. House eh "more TV less reading" kasi totoo naman na mas marami ka pang matututunan sa panonood ng "medya" kesa magbasa ng librong galing sa Recto...isa nga pala munang pa-epal...i suddenly remembered the conceited interviewer from ABS who somewhat referred to me as an "imagination-deficient" organism because i suggested a return of local pinoy teledrama and the syndication and not duplication of reality shows (PBB po yun)...ano ka ngayon???...bakit may Gulong ng Palad na naman ska nasyndicate nyo yung PBB???...siguro nasabi sa yo nung kaibigan ko na yung Marimar fever eh nagsimula sa Masci (although I am not directly crediting myself for the influx but i had a thank you letter from the produ con showmakers for promoting on it heavily on my summer cadets)...wala lang just another mumbling from me hehehe...going back to the topics of the past paki refer na lang sa earlier blog ko concerning M. Pacquiao...

bullet with butterfly wings

2005-11-27T02:31:00.000+08:00

a big OMG (mmpg-ragna lingo for "oh my !%$+ GOD)...dang! ive passed the quarter century mark of human existence (ika nga ni jeko eh quarter-life crisis and the works)...ano na ba nangyari sa buhay ko??? sino na ba talaga ako??? the pompodous william gates once asked the same questions and arrived at a simple conclusion...still DONT (know why and who)...life to me has been fruitful and hard-earned luck at the same time...bakit kamo??? ive experienced both the worst sides of the wheel...from scratching money for food to eating money then scratch my stupid head for doing such a thing (metaphor po ito...sana ma-gets nyo)...ive seen a lot of things and met a lot of people...reeled and dealed...mixed and matched...drank and sobered...smoked and still do...wasted and wanted...ante' up and fall from grace...rise again...maybe by now i am on my medial strata but i still posses the necessary skills to survive, thrive and dominify (bago to inimbento kong word nyahaha - baka meron sa dikz paki-look na lang)...i still walk the same piece of earth and breathe its suffocating mist...i may look and sound different but at least HINDI AKO NAGPANGGAP at NAGBAGO NG PAGKATAO just to hide something from my past (downplay pa nga eh - yabang no hahaha)...i never see any loose ends of my life as a regret or disadvantage...they are challenges...something i need every GOD damn single minute...nga pala...im sick and tired of people trying to bicker me out of my hiatus...HIPPOCRITES...mga PALALO...just fix your pathetic lives PLEASE...ive been through the worst and believe me wala pa yan sa mga nararanasan nyo...ive spent my first 25 to figure that out...now the rest ill spend enjoying the fruits that i reaped from those experiences...

bilog ang mundo

2005-10-20T09:16:00.000+08:00

i was watching the news earlier this Ante Meridiem and i had a glimpse of former political prisoner/wag/pundit/entertainico Behn Cervantes' interview concerning his "immobility" and force "unfelt" on the current social ramblings and machinations of pinoy pulitika...i was humored to imagine that his stance on self-preserving the sanctity of the original ideals of a "revolution" was still intact much less the malevolence of his figure as somewhat questionable...tama nga naman...panget daw tignan na yung "seasoned" rivals eh biglaang maghahawak kamay sabay sigaw ng impeach o pak u GMA...one cant blame cervantes on being a purist...me thinks he is failing to realize the motivations of those people...tama nga na prinsipyo dapat ang labanan at walang pulitikahan...pero...sa mundo ngayon na puro atensyon at media mileage ang pinahahalagahan tingin ko ok lang yun...something that behn is doing himself....unconciously

2005-10-12T04:38:00.000+08:00

labis na naiinip...nayayamot...sa bawat saglit...kapag naaalala ka...wala naman akong magawa...UMUWI KA NA BABY!!!

the roof is on FIRE

2005-09-16T02:33:00.000+08:00

god i love this show...the plot is satirical and racy in a raunchy-obnoxious way...the casts are so damn well fitting to their characters...the dialogue reminds me of an alfred hitchcock-meets-farelly brothers script with a touch of drama and farce on the side...every episode you learn something new and makes you think (it mirrors CSI on the level of tv genre and category)...best described by the juxtaposal OCCAM'S RAZOR..."for a multiple of crisis and solutions to complex and unfathomable problems, the best one is always the simplest"...funny but one of the best and most controversial episodes is titled the quote...

oo nga pala...its aired every tuesday sa axn...alas diyes...

fast fact: hugh laurie was inside a bathroom when he did his audition for the part of dr gregory house...he also played the father on the Stuart Little movies

BLOG REVOLUTION

2005-09-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

Statement of Unity

Bukluran Para sa Katotohanan

We come from all walks of life, from different political, cultural, and economic persuasions, different points of view. But in diversity, we find a cause for unity. That cause for unity is our common objective to secure the truth.

We all seek the truth. We want the truth to come out. And yet every means for seeking the truth has been frustrated; every avenue for arriving at the truth has been blocked; and every opportunity to find the truth is being closed.

Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo’s response to our call for the truth has been to suppress evidence, hide her accomplices, engage in a grand cover-up, sow fear, foment distrust and use every instrument at her disposal to encourage division among our people.

We will not be divided in these critical times.
We say with one voice, Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo must go. For the good of the country, she must go. For the sake of our nation’s future, she must go. For the preservation of hope as a motive force in our national life, she must go.

We are united by the belief that this crisis must be resolved in a manner that is peaceful and democratic. Without the truth, there cannot be peace; without the truth, there is no genuine democracy. The truth must set our nation free.

Unite for the truth. Demand the truth. Defend the truth.
Kami ay ang Bukluran Para sa Katotohanan.

Action for Economic Reforms

AKBAYAN Citizen’s Action Party

Ateneo Concerned Faculty and Youth

Bangon, Pilipinas

Bagong Alyansang Makabayan (BAYAN)

Be Not Afraid

Black & White Movement

Citizens for TRUTH (Transparency, Responsibility, Unity, Trust, Hope)

Citizens for Truth, Resignation, Impeachment, or Ouster (C4T)

Coalition for National Solidarity

Counsels for the Defense of Civil Liberties (CODAL)

De La Salle

FPJP Movement

Freedom from Debt Coalition (FDC)

Interfaith Movement for Truth, Justice and Genuine Change (IFM)

Kilusan ng Makabansang Ekonomiya (KME)

Laban ng Masa

Moro National Liberation Front (MNLF)

Peoples Assembly for Genuine Alternatives to Social Apathy (PAG-ASA)

Pwersa ng Masang Pilipino (PMP)

Reporma

Union of Muslims for Morality and Truth (UMMAT)

United Opposition (UNO)

Unity for Truth and Justice

UP AWARE

UP Diliman Student Council (UPD USC)

White Ribbon Movement

Women MarchYouth

DARE

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2005-08-23T00:13:00.000+08:00

angalan ang king ephew...A-koy I-sang J-apnoy na I-niipunan ng mga R-obot at O-kane...galing ng utol ko no talented...pweh

kahit ano...kahit para kanino

2005-08-22T22:52:00.000+08:00

i hate it when things dont go my way...di naman siguro ako "tagusang-tingnan" para hindi kibuin kahit konti...naguguluhan lang kasi ako, di ko malaman kung naglalaro lang ba tayong dalawa...tingin ko parang nagsasayang lang ako ng oras sa yo eh pero ok lang malakas ka sa kin...wag nga lang ako ulit magsasawa sa yo at baka gawin ko ulit yung ginawa ko dati...parang awa mo na magdesisyon ka naman, hindi lang para sa iba kundi para na rin sa sarili mo...gusto mo bang palagi ka na lang nakatali sa tadyang ng ibang tao, tumayo ka naman sa sarili mong paa anak ng potah...kahit pa sabihin mong may silbi ka, meron nga sa sarili mo lang naman...paano naman ako? baka magsisi ka pagdating ng panahon...gusto ko lang naman malaman, malapit na kasi akong gumawa ng isang mahirap na hakbangin...ikaw pa naman ang napili kong isama sa mundo ko, kahit alam ko na isang malaking pasakit ang aabutin ko...sana maintindihan mo...

2005-08-13T02:11:00.000+08:00

eto ang makukuha nyo pag pinaghalu-halo nyo si superman, si astroboy at si mang erning (numero unong taskador sa quiapo - beggar for short)...presenting...tantananan...SuperNgalNgal - DaBog Wonderer!!!

...Mea Culpa...

2005-08-02T01:46:00.000+08:00

what was it that made me cry just the other day? btw another post again for the journal...kudos to me...the stinking feel of an early mid-life crisis is beginning to beguile me...scary thought...as raf would say "thoughts could kill"...they really do...its been awhile since i have appreciated myself or should i say "pinasalamatan ko na buhay pa ko sa mundo"...slowly everyday i am starting to get the hang of things...yun nga lang wala na kong puwang sa ibang bagay na malapit sa pagiging "sosyal"...puta ang aga kong nagsawa sa pagiging bata - pero yung takbo ng pag iisip ko eh hindi pa rin nagbabago...i still crave the call of the wild "red" yonder and the palpitations of doing something menacing and irreversible...im losing the edge a quarter inch at a time...kahit pa sabihin nung iba na parang turumpo yung ikot ng buhay ko - tali lang ang katapat pero kahit kailan hindi mo pwedeng ipermanente sa pagkakatali sa "string" ng kahit ano (permanence...monotony...relationship) ewan ko kung bakit ako biglang naging "hermit"...i was really planning on a sabbatical but i never expected it to be this herculean of a task...knowing myself was really a lot of work...ang hirap palang mabuhay sa labas ng kahon - lahat ng kilos mo nababantayan ng pinakamasugid mong kritiko - SARILI MO...these past few years i have gone out the circle of my construed routine...and the sad thing about it is that the past is beginning to catch up with me big time...buti na lang...i always find solace in the truth that i can always live upon my own expectations...i dont care what other people think about me unless they bring fruit to my table and wine to my glass...oh i forgot about the "tear drop" question i asked at the start of the post...bakit nga ba?...siguro simula nang pumasok sa buhay ko yung tao na yun nag iba yung prayoridad ko...i started to "brake" down on my persona run...i began to run the mile more like a finisher rather a winner...is she the reason?...or are they the reasons?...yung pag iyak ko ba ay isang paraan para iparating ng tunay kong sarili na kailangan ko ng pagbabago...na gamitin ko yung kakayahan kong manipulahin ang sarili ko at ang mga taong nakapaligid sa akin?...or is it just a release - a way i think is the most effective in dealing with the stresses that i fail to feel or consider when i am active...ano pa man ang dahilan natuwa ako at kahit papaano ay nabawasan ang dinadala kong bigat sa loob...na ang sarili kong pagkakamali ay siya na ring mismong namamaraan para sa aking kapakanan...

Description of A Beau as a Song

2005-08-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

what day is it and in what month this clock never seemed so alive I can't keep up and I can't back down I've been losing so much time cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to lose and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of you all of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right I'm tripping inwards you got my head spinningI don't know where to go from here cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to prove and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of you there's something about you now I can't quite figure out everything she does is beautiful everything she does is right you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to lose and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of you you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to prove and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of you what day is it and in what month this clock never seemed so alive...

2005-08-01T23:51:00.000+08:00

death wish...in case i never post a blog again panigurado napatay na ko ng may-ari ng pic na to...actuallly she is the current "interest" of my life...the cog in the wheel of my machinery...sorry GLAZE but i need to tell the world about you...to see the beauty that i see in you...(ano peeps pwede na bang pang "teenie-bopper" flick yung istorya namin?)...basted na kung basted hehehe (wala pa naman

2005-06-18T02:56:00.000+08:00

STARWARS Episode 7:Tito San' Ba Papuntang Alibangbang? (aka...Ako ang Daan...Ang Katotohanan...Sa Landas ng Kandungan)...the dangers of "unsober" driving just got "danger-rer"...NEXT PICTURE...Pag May Bumayo May Nagtanim (aka Paglaki Ko Gusto Kong Maging POPOYista - "When I Grow Up I Wanna Be A Popularits!)

gonna bye bye baby epi tres

2005-06-18T01:27:00.000+08:00

once again...as predicted...blah blah blah...im back!...sorry for the delay (as if a lot of peeps waited for this shit...pweh...asa pa ko hahaha)...wala na ngang bitinan...being the businessman that i was/am/will be/am great (making moola out of mindless ideas) i wasted no time to cash in on the "untapped" simpletons of our barrio...from renting out my ps2 to betting on illegal motorcycle races at dusk and assessing crop revenues for cooperatives...wherever money flows and drips into profit youll definitely "smell" me there in the middle of it...ang masaya pa sa probinsya eh di ka gaano at medyo gagastos...everythings a lot cheaper and usually when you buy stuff at the town market they are in bulk or wholesale...i felt like a "don" whenever i did the "marketing" and haggling-wise no one's cheaper to the bones than me (sa maniwala kayo o hindi)...cooking was a blast during the "happy return" as i did it old style ala 1950's...it was done on antiquidated limestone grills housed on a small nipa hut detached from our "villa"...you need to fire up the "stoves" first before actually beginning the process of cooking (that takes roughly an additional 30 minutes to the cooking time...so frying an egg was a nightmare and boiling water was almost out of the question - we use gas for that hehehe)...on the barrio too i got the chance to fulfill another craving i could never ever do at the "polis"- firearm usage and target shooting...from air rifles to danao pistols i had my fill...sayang....it was almost a waste due to one "forgiveable" fact - i forget my digital camera and all we had to "kodak" our memories was the videocam and 24 rolls of film...crud...after a week of excitement and a "fortuitous reunion" we had to bid our sayonara to the land of ma'mama'(mah' momma' jiggaboo)...back to "kalakhan" we go - where the air is thick (pollution and dust) and the "niche" crowded...when going back to anything or anywhere, why does time tend to fly faster? hindi ba ang bakasyon ay maituturing na "relaxation" pero bakit iniisip ng tao palagi na magpahinga pagkagaling sa biyahe? at bakit walang yosi sa barkong ito? (those were the questions stirring on my cerebro while i was at the RoRo batangas-bound)...the sea was as flat as my belly (mag react...PATAY!) and the ride needed no bonamine...sarap ng skyflakes at nissin cup...ng bukayo at kababayan...ni analeah ng batangas (hehehe...just a co-passenger who shared a common passion of chain-smoking and sensible conversation with yours truly)...without her and Kapitan Bartolome Isidro id be RIP by now - from lack of vitamin N(icotine) and mineral T(ar)...docking at the port i said adieu to the pretty beau from lemery and the bay of batangas...162 kilometers to go man!...no fuss...at the SLEX i then realized a big blunder...OMG (ragna-lingo for oh my friggin GOD!) si BOOMA coding! TAENA! (my japnoy nephew was inspirational in the naming of our pseudo hess-yu-bee - a corruption of the word KURUMA which means auto mo to')...we had to kill time at the caltex starstation and for me "bituin-salapi" as usual (sosi eh wala akong magagawa...yun nga lang galing starmart yung kape ko hahaha)...ayan 630 na pwede na siguro to...we were on our way...as were going near our abode i grew unhappy by the minute...i already missed my "uhuging" cousins that bugged me every damn hour of our vacation (asking for a ton of things...from Playstation cheats to tips on errands)...the shrills and shrieks of relatives and old-timer "katandaans"who frequented our "villa" every day of that fateful week...the lokalistas who served as my temporary hommies and "runions" of mischief and a thousand laughs...the "atmosphere" i sorely want and can only be found on another equally "aquine" place - sagada...ah..another chronicle on the j-man journals...damn my grandchildren would be happy with this...dagdag na naman sa ikukwento...

sky rockets in flight epi 2

2005-06-15T22:46:00.000+08:00

after a well needed rest and a disgusting bout with the forces of Team Magma (pokemon rokz haha) im now here doing the continuance on my previous post (pwede namang sabihing part two eh no inartehan ko pa)...as the story goes we arrived "home" around 4 in the afternoon after almost a whole day of traversing the so-called "strong republic highway" (the signs were a nice touch but it sucked...they were not much visible to motorist and were written in such a way it was deliberately more of the artistic than as informative)...relatives greeted us with glee when we arrived (not because WE were there but because we had a lot of "pasalubong" for them - typical filipino trait i might add)...as usual they got a "mouthful" from my ermatz and ended up carrying our stuff with the "goodies" left at the "behikulo" for later distribution (sorry if this is sounding more and more like a refugee/military story)...walking through the dirt road leading to our house i was glad to see my "beauties" and how they had blossomed (the "flowers" i planted when i was vacationing way back then...12 different species from the common sampaguita to my wonderful/rare vanda orchids hanging on a mango tree that i too planted...ang "berde" ko at nyo talaga)...a battalion of cousins met me and immediately gave me one of the most treasured thrills of my life - a warm unconditional hug - with a slight of hands manouver to dislodge my wallet from my pocket...anak ng patutsay naman oh mamaya na haha..."ayan na si ESENG!"...a cry all too familiar coming from my closest kins - cousin/brother "andoyong" of Tondo (believe or not our quaint patch of baranggay is known - all throughout our province - as Tondo...relatives of the past were all fighters and rebels spurting other townsfolk to call our place as such)...basketball was the first agenda on our minds...we played and easily creamed the six-foot, "2 cavans of rice-carrying giants" team of the poblacion (they looked menacing...just looked the part though)...manila streetball always prevailed thank you very much (couple that with our "common" tactics of panggugulang and balyahan only found in the metro - as one of my friends in baguio would call "supersaiyan kadayaan galing kamaynilaan")...i spent the whole week on beach trips to my favorite tita's place and on the "silangan" river that runs from the "mountains" of halcon to the bay of pola (yes you guessed it...its where our vice president hails from)...i had the grandest time of "laboring" for what i eat...going through the forest grove for a snack of indian mangoes and dalanghita...sweeping the fields for watermelon and the admonial french delicacy "palaka"...and going around the gardens for the freshest veggies that beats the hell-rush buying at blumentritt...everyday was fulfilling...the warm temp of the day (manila was too damn hot to be at - 35 to 37 was a common reading at the metropolis as opposed to the one i was experiencing) and the cold summer night was recharging and refreshing...the air is "duh" naturally clean and the water from our "balon" seemed distilled...looking at the sky at night i remembered the lines from a song ("i lay my head unto the ground...the sky resembles a backlit canopy with holes punched in it"...wish you were here...incubus)...damn i how i really wished my "hommies" were there with me (kaso lang alak panigurado ang ikot ng usapan hahaha...sinabi nang di na ko tumotoma eh)...being the chameleon that i am i blended well with the local populace and gained the immediate trust of a number of folks from the area (PR was the game...buti na lang i had 3 units of it)...age was no factor in the discussions (something that i really liked in a rural setting...no fuss and hush just serious unabated talk)...COMMERCIAL MUNA - itutuloy bukas...antok na ko eh

grab some afternoon delight epi-one

2005-06-15T00:37:00.000+08:00

its been a "hectic" past two months for me...grabe...i really love going around town and outside the "skirts" of pamosong "kalakhang maynila"...ive skipped a lot of "other" social activities just to reward myself a chance to recharge my fervent "piety" on selfish indulgences that has or has not rewarded my fancy...doing a "part time" writing job was somewhat "returnful" (pardon the "konyotik" approach to word formation on the rewards and perks of doing freelance work - ayoko ng redundancy eh) both intellectually and "pocket-ly" but the trip to "hapiness" was the toast of the month of flowers...traversing the SLEX for nth time wasnt a blast anymore than a nightmare of sorts (i was faced with the gargantuan task of driving from manila to batangas city on a saturday morning of was still then "vacation" period - visualize EDSA during rush hour with several road mishaps) ...a sip of mocca frappo and a bite of ham n' chiz "kwasant" (croissant gaga haha) from "bituin-salapi" was the only refuge i had from the monstrosity of traffic on a supposedly "traffic-proof" highway south of the metro...the megaplaza looked more like divisoria during that fateful day (parking was a nightmare...all of us there seemed to be zombies thinking the same act of making "istambay" on the gasoline station/mall/tambayan/ihian) and some even had taken the liberty of doing a picnic on the grass area of the site (kesa nga naman magtanghalian sa kalsada ika nga)...we left manila around half past five in the morn but still we were only in santo tomas at 9 (we should have been in batangas city by then...crap)...the reason of traffic was the blazing "turtle" pace of the tollgate tellers and the stubborn "sinabi nang barya lang" motorist who made it a point to flaunt and impress pathetically other motorist (flashing their "blue" crisp 1000 bill na akala mo sila lang meron nun)...poor folks...after doing a 40 on the highway and then letting the Miss Earth Philippines convoy pass (kapal sobra...pati yung mga "sabit" support kuno vehicles kasama...sinigawan pa kami...good thing kalinya ko yung isang mayor sa occidental mindoro...kabog sila haha) we figured ourselves in the calabarzon highway...yehey makaka 150kph na naman on the open road sa wakas...after the hellish traffic we arrived at the port of batangas in the dead heat of noon (crap we missed the 1030 trip...we had to wait an hour)...spending the waiting hours i was amused by an old gentleman (tatay greg his name he announced) who was making his way through Aleng Glo's RoRo etchos from pampanga all the way to caticlan in the visayas (telling the tale of the wedding he is to go to and the story of his whole damn but colorful life)...i also found fondness on the merry makers from Ateneo etc (recent grads i think) who lost their minds when they decided to be "cheap" once in their lifetime and do the ala "Road Trip flick"experience of going to boracay on chariots...on the ferry i was with the "gang from alabang" and all the while they all referred to me as kuya (potah naisip ko tuloy na matanda na ko...pweh)...we lounged at the open area sitting of the RoRo and immediately i did my "pinakamalufet" mcgyver-impression setting up a stereo system from just an iPOD and a large speaker we borrowed from the pilot house of the boat (thanks katarina for the iPOD experience...mapag ipunan nga)...we said our adieu after arriving at port leaving each other numbers just in case they want to make fun of me again (natuwa sila sa kin eh...sino ba naman hindi hehehe)...good thing it was my uncle's turn on the wheels so i had the free time of scratching my balls (kiddin)...a lot has changed in oriental mindoro eversince i first set foot on it when i was a small "booger"...it was more and more looking like an urban "paddy" yet majority is still rural in "background"...and hell i loved it...ive been through and to a lot of places in the country but only in our province do i still feel the ruggedness of what "provincial" was all about...it was "eto bahay namin" walk a good 3 to 5 minutes before "eto yung kapitbahay naman" setting still lingering in these parts that really got me "nostalgic" (nose talsik sipon stuff) and placid..."wala sa maynila nyan no utoy" fondly said by my lolo-uncle when we arrived at our quaint "tiny" town...ah saya talaga ng bakasyon...to be continued (antok na ko eh)

2005-05-07T05:19:00.000+08:00

galing pugad baboy --- SAWT BIATCH (south beach)...i modify mo lang ng konti...i lost 10 pounds in just 4 weeks...kung wala siguro akong garilyo' baka mas mataas pa...

why walking is good for your health...

2005-05-04T00:02:00.000+08:00

i was taking a walk around the block this morning...syempre yosi after eating my brunch...kasama na yung pagpapababa ng kinain...bigla akong may napansin...yung sm na tinatayo just a stone throw's away from my place was nearing its completion...naaalala ko pa yung lugar na yun nung bata pa ako...it was formerly San Lazaro Hippodrome (tambayan at mecca ng bayang karerista since the colonial times and where Joe Rizal was once a patron)...now it reads SM City San Lazaro...potah swerte ko talaga hehehe...biruin mo mall pa ang lumapit sa kin of all things (although im sure i wasnt on the plan of Mr Sy when he thought of building a "shoe store" there)...aba moment of clarity naman ang tema ng utak ko...the mall has just justified the significance of our area as a center not only of the city but of the whole Luzon area if not the country as well (sa maniwala kayo sa hindi...partida na residential area pa)...take this for example...from here in our place one could go virtually anywhere or travel to any point on the country...lahat ng biyahe halos dumadaan...from buses that go to the northern provinces (take a pick...Phil Rabbit,Genesis,Victory,Philtranco etc.) and the south (although most of them are in Buendia madalas may naliligaw dito and colorum buses are frequent)...the LRT (which connects 3 lines) and jeepneys (that go both ways and those that are area specific)...sama mo na yung mga fx ska auv's that go to commercial areas (makati, ortigas, pasig, libis, madrigal park etc.) and the numerous taxis that pass through...and you only need to take one ride or two (pinakamarami na yun)...maiba tayo...after drowning myself on two sticks of boro' lights i went home feeling satisfied...not because of the things i was thinking earlier...but because of what i found while i was strolling on the way home...a crisp and folded P500 bill on the pavement...i looked around to see if somebody's looking for it...aba wala...shezz grasya na eh...ayun swerte talaga...

2005-04-30T04:18:00.000+08:00

madonna and child...version 2.4...lola wid apo...a striking semblance to the opus of mike buonarotti...yun nga lang si J-man ang nakapikit dun...

isang istanza

2005-04-30T03:30:00.000+08:00

in the midst of the storm appears a glow
inviting...tempting...construed yet aboar
i came to and saw no truth...claimed no sorrow
a page in time...flipped on full...folded whole
moves with haste though bound from foot
real?...imaginary?...plain?...circumstance?
uncovered...real...yet search undone

back to the future...

2005-04-30T02:47:00.000+08:00

its been weeks since i last posted on my blog...sorry po guyz nasira yung account ko eh...thanks kaiko for fixing the bug in my blog...anyways salutations again to the folks that have been waiting my postings again (asa pa ko eh no...)...lets do a time machine/time line na lang during my absence here...the pope's death...election of the new pope...my sleepless month...the yearly "awting" ng adakrabs...and op kors ang pag alis ng "bosing" ko (my sister...my financier...my source)...POPE'S DEATH: giovanni paolo segunda laid past his prime during the frame...sad but joyful event...ill always remember him for two things (breaking the barriers of tradition and the World Youth Day in Manila 1995)...HABEMUS PAPAM: cardinal ratzinger's election into the "holy" throne of San Pedro...a former NAZI parlista and war MIA that found his way to the Fisherman's "RING" (pun intended)...hardliner-politburo of the Vatican Government (hence the alias "panzerkardinal"...parang tangke di ba)...no surprises to his election although i favor cardinal arinze more (kung malakas lang si Sin baka siya pa nanalo)...fact:his predecessor (or antecessor...i dont care) Pope Benedict XV served for just 3 and 1/2 years and was an influential force in the election of all the succeding pontiffs after him (kahit hanggang kay josef ratzi)...i peeve him the "neutral" pope kasi nung WWI medyo balimbing sya...SLEEPLESS in SULU: the heat stinks...pati ako...i have no choice kasi summer eh...BULACAN SOJOURN: marred by an accident (salamat at minor lang naman...with just my friend's car nipped and dented) and shortage of salapi...we pulled through again...no thanks to the efforts of yours truly (as i needed to push all the go buttons and shell out some piece...if you know what i mean)...ang saya saya at ang galak galak...nakakita pa ko ng "sychronized" swimming (kahit masagwa...amusing naman)...sayang walang mga "kuha"...SAYONARA: my sis just left for Ippon again for the nth time and brought all her vacation memories from here to matsui (kasama na bank account ko at atm n credit nya...potah)...back to being simple and penniless again...hope the one im striving to "karir" ay eto na...ayun...yun yung mga istorya these past weeks...ill be back ASAP to tell more...konting komersyal muna...

2005-04-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

penis monologues:...wake up man smell the roses...shut up biatch smell my ass...what the!!!...im near that sheeznay...pogi no...hehehe

all about the benjamins...

2005-03-22T22:59:00.000+08:00

idiot...selfish...braggart...remembering these words from a film i watched once (i dont remember where hehehe) and seeing the pug between esse' Erik Morales et hombre Manny Pacquiao one would not deny why...why the hell was the fight that pathetic and unentertaining...period...typical Don King-konged row that was more about the benjamins than the true worth of a marquise duel of respectable pugilist...okay Pacman was undersized and does not belong in the class that Morales does (manny is originally a light featherweight whereas erik is a natural super feather) but it doesnt mean he has all the right in the world to "under" prepare...some said that the difference in weight class wasnt a factor...yeah right...its all the difference...its like dashing your Ford F150 to an Isuzu Elf truck without a bumper...I asked my uncle (who luckily was once an aspiring boxer) about the factors that were important for a boxfight...his answer was simple...learn the basics...conserve energy (through training and exercise)...and watch your weight (diet and most important classifying yourself in your class)...in fairness to manny and to his fans (as myself) i think the fault was more on his "posse"...they were too blinded by the monetary returns that they failed to see the obvious...erik was too damn prepared and kept a low profile about it...he never sought attention although he was more boastful than manny was...he knew how to hold the media by its neck...and sarcastically he was an underdog as the opinionated have stated...that made the difference...siyempre iniisip nung mga "kurimaw" ni paquiao na kahit matalo siya eh panalo pa rin sa salapi...they were never told about the so called "poison" of media exposure...if you dont entertain you never will again...given another chance...and if maybe manny fails one more time (sana naman wag)... viewers and boxing afficianados alike will start to question his psyche and approach to the sport...he will look more like a one-hit wonder than a shoo-in survivor...sana naman hindi mangyari yun...going to my principles of marketing roots and applying the basics of sales management...the query about what one should prefer for their business (and for life na rin)...customer retention or customer satisfaction...many would choose satisfying their customers (panigurado yun ang sagot nyo)...but after that what...they would be all lost to another that offers a better one(product or service)...if you retend its the best of both worlds...it means you satisfy your consumers at the same time they go back for you...mo' money di ba...

2005-03-21T20:04:00.000+08:00

Rak On!...Boy Pana...ang pinakaMALUFET and pinakaWAFUNG sniper sa aeRo international Ragna Private...adek amfotah...taena miss ko na guildmates ko...tagal ko na kasing AFK kaya wala na sa game...

do you believe in me...

2005-03-20T20:25:00.000+08:00

the lenten seasons coming up...holy shit! (no pun intended)...im sick and tired of people treating the lent as just another long vacation...screw you folks...i cant blame them for doing their so called "plans" and sure as hell i dont care what they do....but please have a little respect for Christ sake and at least keep it a little "conservative"...di kayo makapaniwala na galing sa kin to no...but even if I am partial Buddhist(i think) and a majority Catholic(parang naka pie graph yung religious preference ko) I still respect the sanctity of the "holy" week and the ideals that it stands for...kahit pa questioning ako concerning the truths about religion it doesnt matter...wala kang direksyon if you do not have faith...you have no persona if you do not have the power of choice...kasi excuse ng ibang tao..."tang ina isang taon kang puro trabaho kaya eto lang pagkakataon"...tsk tsk...i pity these folks who cant find the time in their own schedules to do these things they do on the lent vacation...they make it an excuse...kung tutuusin ang dali dali gumawa ng free time at di mo na kailangang mag isip at lumakad ng malayo...i learned that nung college days...how to squeeze everything into an airtight sched...i dont wanna make excuses but if i did at least i had the great fucking reason to do so...and i dont care if people believe me or not...hell bat ko kailangang ipaliwanang yung sarili ko sa yo...(sorry for the angry vibe hehehe)...i hope people would at least find a little time to do something for their faith during the "week" (ako i helped a local kid on the beach to look for shells for his necklace)...at least i did something...

2005-03-15T02:28:00.000+08:00

subic...my second home...my future hub...i think...i really love this place...tipo bang mini hawaii ala 50 first dates...the food is great (manay titangs killer sisig just outside the gates)...the beach (pick one like you pick your nose - loob man o labas ng SBMA)...the attractions (ocean adventure - sabi ko sa inyo 50 First Dates eh...and a lot more have just sprung up)...the ambience (para kang nasa ISTEYTS...siguro...di pa naman ako nakakaabot dun eh)...the people (gaganda ng chikadillas sa GAPO...ingat lang sa gabi ha pipol)...the shopping (the mecca of duty-free goods and bastion of second-hand car buys...alalahanin ang mga auto ha guyz dating kaliwa yan)...the experience (lahat na nang pwede nandito na...you wont find it anywhere else trust me)...P.S. if anyone wants a trip here give me a haller...ill be glad to show you around...wag nga pala kayong magtaka kung bakit pareho yung suot ko dito ska dun sa pic na may shark mascot - parehong trip yun...nasira kasi memory stick ko...taena...

2005-03-14T01:05:00.000+08:00

friday group...that's entertainment batch 96'...miss ko na yung mga araw na yan...especially those days when i was still a size 26'...bahala na kayong hanapin ako diyan

wild things...

2005-03-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

i never really thought about this before but i think i understand now what you were "telling" me...im stupid...selfish...out of control...in love...that sort of stuff...when people start caring about other people...the most essential thing is to lose care of one's self...period...sometimes we get so disillusioned about the rigors and perks of ritual mating that we veer away from the quintessence of that "sacrament"...i had this theory...whenever a person falls or goes into the "love" state he/she becomes his/her basic primal form...and that "form" is the perfect manifestation of what is really natural...animal instinct...nyarrrr...hehehe...as in the world of our "cousins" in the "kingdom" mating is a rite of understanding and settling "accounts"...if you are the fastest, the smartest, the strongest and the most flamboyant you get to deposit your "account"...its a bit different to us people as the most tactical and the best strategist usually gets to do that "depositing" thing...someone asked me once if SEX changes everything in a relationship whether it be between lovers or friends...it does...kahit pa gaano kadulas errr kadalas hehehe...between lovers it solidifies the bond that links their fragile chain of which has been weakened by a thing called "familiriaty"...and between friends (if it happens consensually) it creates an opportuned moment of certainty that makes friendship seem a step towards the next stage of life and build respect between them peers (sounds unreal but its the truth - i learned it from experience)...teka bakit tayo napunta sa sex...tag init kasi eh...i almost had an epiphany the other day...false alarm lang pala but it doesnt matter...eto lang masasabi ko...zel naintindihan ko na yung point mo kung bakit di tayo magkakaintindihan...i dont care if we are or were meant to be pero mahal pa rin kita, although i cant compromise on that anymore, and thats all that matters...past has passed...to you glaze i know it is exceedingly arduous for you to emancipate your emotions but at least try once just for the sake of it...it may be hard to learn from mistakes but its doubly callous not to have experienced it in your lifetime...i am willing to share that circumstance with you...as i am throwing caution to the wind just to be that one...

2005-03-12T01:52:00.000+08:00

"define IRONY...bunch of idiots dancing on a plane to a song made famous by a band that died on a plane crash" -garland green (steve buscemi) from the movie CONAIR....the cast of BORA......T...kapizh...

the heat is on...biatches gone...

2005-03-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

kakagising ko lang...abnormal ano - baliktad kasi oras ko eh...kakapagod kasi lumayas lalo na kung ikaw na pati driver...sakit sa ulo...amf...ang init sobra...namimiss ko tuloy baguio lalo na ngayon na tag araw na naman...hmm...malamang bawi na naman to sa annual outing ng barkadahan namin...a tradition i think we will never...ever...break...period...im running out of resort and hideaway locations...naipimigay ko na lahat halos ng alam ko...christ! even those places that i never expected to be so much commercialized are now full-blown public property...literally...my bad...kasalanan ko kasi gusto ko i-share sa tao yung mga lugar na yun (im not crediting myself ok guys - nakadagdag lang ako)...di bale may iba pa naman akong alam na tago pa rin pero patok...san juan batangas here we come...definitely buhay na naman yung "jinx" ng barkada namin hahaha...speaking of "kama-lasan" here's the 411...at first i didnt really believed there was one...but then we considered the circumstances that were similar to all our annual "IS-WIMENG"...both summer and sembreak...and came up with a grim factoid...that most of the "special" friends na sinama namin sa outing mysteriously breaks up with the ones' who wanted their company...nagsimula nung 2001 kina patrick and grace (nadamay na rin si mike saka si keng)...tapos nung 2002 with me and ______ (di na matuwa pa siya pag binanggit ko pangalan nya hehehe)...2003 naman walang may dala kaso may nabuo...but it didnt last long....the shocker was last year 2004 with hayme payatot and iris (tipo bang mag aasawa na yung dalawa tapos biglang nawala na parang usok) saka yung kay lou and "ugat panangga" na dinidigaan nya...buti na lang nung november '04 dehins sinama ni kris si alma...malamang...ayoko nang magsalita...di ka talaga maniniwala pero its the truth...tado kasing mga SARSTRUCKs na to lakas makasira ng lovelife hahaha...kaya ako diskarte ko "solo" act para walang ma-EPAL hehehe...nadala na kasi ako sa mga barkada ko nung college (tipo bang SEX, LIES and HIDDEN AGENDAS)...siguro naman alam nung mga marketing ang sinasabi ko...saksi dun yung sandamakmak na outing namin pati na rin yung mga bahay namin nina yoyie saka mama cely...good thing i was a good boy back then hahaha...at least nobody tried to blindside me or stab me behind my back...i think...naku...kung tarantado lang ako nun malamang...buti na lang nandun si nato at least para akong may utol na nakamasid...miss ko na tuloy si gago...for those who wanted to know Renato "tonatz" Gorospe is now a member of Jemaah Islamiyah hahaha...he wanders around the agusan-surigao-saranggani area terrorizing people by selling them NESTLE products...mas nakakatakot pa sa mga MILF high-powered arms ang bitbit nya...mahal na produkto...sino ba naman hindi matatakot sa presyo ng bilihin ngayon di ba...yun lang...jermitano out...

2005-03-11T01:35:00.000+08:00

negnoy and japnoy...original pinoy recipe on the left with a japanese-fused sidedish on the right...walang ganyan sa ISTEYTS...

the SHOW OFF must go on...

2005-03-11T01:05:00.000+08:00

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man

-yup youre right its a song...its about me...exactly...

2005-03-11T01:01:00.000+08:00

staring into the abyss...it is as bleak as the moon and as regent as the sun...it holds no truth nor chance yet it captivates ones' soul...is faith much stronger?

2005-03-10T23:09:00.000+08:00

tagaytay 05'...damn it bad news guys...yung dating "tambayan" spot sa highway barb-wire fenced na and People's Park has now been made into a large Nordic Mountain Walker machine...crap...di bale the view still is magnificent...at oo MAHANGIN sa LABAS...

konek...konek...compare

2005-03-10T21:28:00.000+08:00

tambay na naman as usual...life doesnt get any better than this...i just finished my game analysis to starsports asia on the game this early morning (it was night in Turin, Italy) between Real Madrid and Juventus...naadik ako sa soccer na naman because of my foster dad (who is an Italian doctor-otorynologist - a mad soccer fan of Juventus and Internazionale Milan) and playing FIFA 05 on my PS2...it was really an exciting match since both teams were my favorites and that it was a clash between two of the supreme clubs in the world (leviathan both in terms of budget, management and collection of football superstars)...it didnt matter who won...for me anyways...but the difference in both teams was so strikingly familiar i couldnt help myself doing semantics to it from reality...think about this...Real is a juggernaut in terms of finances (a billion dollar club sponsored by large corporate sponsors - Adidas, Pepsi, Siemens, ADB-Amro, DeutscheTel, Teka) and having the best collection of players in each position (the team is also known as "Los Galacticos(The Galaxy)" obviously because they have the likes of Ronaldo, Zidane, Michael Owen, Ikor Casillas, Luis Figo, Roberto Carlos and of course David Beckham who are all "superstars")...Juventus on the other hand is a pure Italian pride club with a respectable financial backing (Nike, Sony, Ford-Fiat, Tamoil and Iveco) and a roster of top-tier players as well (Alessandro del Pierro, David Trezeguet, Emerson, Ibrahimovic, Simic, Zalayeta and "halimaw" goalkeeper Gianfranco Buffon)...para bang yung network wars ngayon between the two largest "multimedia" outfits on television...i dont want to pick a fight with anyone and sure hell wouldnt mind if someone wants some...pero wala i just want to compare notes and do the same analysis...trip lang...ABS-CBN Channel 2 is the country's biggest media corporation and has the longest experience in broadcasting (if you find me wrong then do the research yourself)...it is a financial titan (under the Lopez Group) and is also a conglomerate of production outfits (from cinema to recording)...it has the widest reach and caters to almost all Filipinos on the planet (Filipino Channel, Pinoycentral and abs-cbn.com)...and coincidentally it is also known as the Star Network, having under its wings the likes of Dolphy, Sharon, Nora, Maricel, "Da King" Poe, Juday, Robin etc... (so semantics, it is Real Madrid comparatively)...on the other hand GMA Channel 7 is the fastest growing network on the country (honestly their claim of 56 years is just a big marketing scheme due to the fact that during the Marcos times they were owned by the government and served as a "crony" propaganda machine)...they also have a respectable financial status (recognized by Asia Week and Far Eastern Economic Review as one of the media "darlings" of Asia) and a myriad of newly-spurned media interests (recording, the internet and recently the "revival" of GMAFilms)...they also have a great field of show-business personalities that are original (sorry i cant think of anyone GMA homegrown...hmm...Mike Enriquez??) and a lot who were once from the "opponent" network (Richard Gomez, Joey Marquez, Regine Velasquez, Michael V.,Ogie Alcasid at siyempre ang Eat Bulaga)...so that makes them Juventus...(sige pahinga muna kayo ng pagbabasa haba eh hehehe)...from the present look of things i honestly believe the latters claim of being number one on the television ratings could be true (clincher = di naman ganun ka-accurate yung ACNielsen TVScan kasi konti lang yung test TV sets (est. 2000 sets) nila kaya inconclusive - plus the fact that "kapamilya" ako kaya may doubts ako hehehe)...but i enjoy watching "Siyete" as of now kasi di pilit yung programming nila and a lot of plotting for their shows are refreshing (somewhat or has a better twist) kahit hindi pa siguro original (aminin na natin kasi TV addict ako and i do a lot of cable-viewing kaya alam ko kung ano yung nakokopya ang idea from foreign shows)...they improve within their ranks and are not panicking (kahit pa mukhang walang "ethics" yung approach nila sa propaganda scheming nila)...di tulad ng "Dos" ngayon who are overpanicked and are scrambling to crack the rating sheets again...nabawasan tuloy sila ng creative drive kasi nag kanya kanya na naman - "superstar ego" ang tawag kaya nawala na rin ang teamwork...they are wasting their advantage (having the best stars and the biggest budget)...i hope they do a complete a 360 as soon as possible...oo nga pala since this is an ironic blog with a twist of semantics...kayo na maghanap ng winner dun sa laban ng Real Madrid saka Juventus sa elimination stages nila (and see who won over whom)...hokei?

2005-03-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

shark's tale...stupid lenny cant take a hint...im a man for christ's sake...stop gropping my ass...

the tale up north...

2005-03-08T22:31:00.000+08:00

oh my god...its summer already...time flies too damn fast...unlike the past years...we take each day at a time...a week today is comparable to a day on a week of '90 or '91...i missed those days...crud...as usual im already making plans on how to tackle the whole 2 months of tropical heat...good thing im home-based and freelance coz if i were a nine-to-fiver i'd be kissing this opportunity goodbye...and the best thing...im a travel-addict...anywhere anytime is my cursed free-spirit motto...got that attitude from my college days..."putang kolehiyo yan puro biyahe at lakwatsa tinuro sa kin hehehe"...we were hardly in manila during those days...if we were not here in my house my whole barkada would be anywhere else...name a place and im sure we had, have and has been there...it is as if that NLEX was just a corridor...we passed it a lot of times i developed a talent to sleep and wake up exactly at the exit we want to take...i still can do it and if you want to test me just tag me along if you plan to drive there...i remembered this one time that we went to baguio after class...my mother called my friend around 10 in the evening asking her where could i be...she didnt know that my friend was with me up in north and was aghast on the fact that we were there...and to think that we had a class the next day in the morning...hahaha cely drove "tammy" like hell after our escapade in "pine city"...oh yeah i remembered that i was a "beater" too during that time ("beater" a corrupted slang for a lovesick fool wishing to have a crack at a failed attempted romance)...i started hot-headed and grumpy that day but later that experience made me a lot better...its something i discovered when we were used to be out of the city...that you recharge everything and feel relaxed when you're out there in the countryside...you lose sight of worries and begin to have the drive to think your problems over and easily formulate effective ways of solving them...no matter what problem you have...ah those were the days...

2005-03-05T23:43:00.000+08:00

me and yayo...alagang tito yan simula 3 months pa lang...i am looking forward to a future having someone like him...

a crack on the whip...

2005-03-05T22:56:00.000+08:00

crap its been a whole day of doing manual work again...i missed playing ball and i stunked playing billiards coz i was not in the mood...i just finished washing my suv (hahaha feeling) earlier when it started to rain...damn it...but i was quite happy...eventhough a lot of things were against me today...i solved the riddle of the electrical malfunction in my car's stepboard lighting and just learned that sm san lazaro will be fully operational in july...yahoo...its just a stone's throw away from my place...but what really made me a bit squiggish (squeel and sluggish combined) and chest-quaked (a hard beating of my upper torso) was the fact that i saw someone i still admire...and still do...i never really remembered what made us go opposite ways...maybe i was slow and calculating of my actions...or maybe she was not prepared for the likes of me...or maybe just maybe we were never meant to be...kahit pa isang linggong "kaplingan" lang...the sad thing was she was the only one that really had the greatest impact on me...i became almost permanently sober because of her...i stopped smoking - for a while anyway (gagong Mr. Smith ng John Hancock kasi pinatabako pa ko)...and had to take a mulligan again on cracking traditional date practices...and the funny thing was i never even had to do one of those...tanga...i just had to show myself...be serious about my intentions...and face her leege'...i got brain-tied and panicked on the evitable...of taking the leap...from becoming a kindred stallion...to being a briddled thoroughbred...that would definitely suck...but i cant do anything anymore about it...kumbaga sa basketbol eh "the ball is in your court"...the decisions now are up to her...whether or not she'll accept my invites for a second chance at a romantic interlude...whatever that means hahaha...eto lang masasabi ko...if you deny yourself the pleasures of life - be it things that make you happy or sad...you will never know what life really holds for you...you can live your life the way others see it fit...but at the end of the day...whose life did you live with anyway...

2005-03-05T00:44:00.000+08:00

so its you...i've been waiting for so long...so its you...there were you all along...

noypi...non-obvious yet pinoy ingenuity

2005-03-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

i was in banawe this morning and had my car patched up...tadong william to nasangga auto ko...everytime i go there i always felt amazed and surprised...at how good and ingenius filipinos are...tang ina ang gagaling...i remembered something my japanese brother-in-law once said to me while he was vacationing here "firipinos tensai wa...can fix up anything like it was lego...copy it like xerox...and create like clay-do"...he is a senior plant manager for mazda and he was "elibs" in the way "us" pinoys cope up with everything just to get through anything...the guy who was fixing my car was just a plain dude making a quick buck...but he was really amazing...improvising everything - matching the paint...removing the paint transferred from the "bumper car" (as opposed to the "bumpee car" who was me)...delicately spraying over the scratch after coating it...and cooking it under the improv halogen lamps just to match the overalls of the body (somewhat simulating the effects of the elements in time lapse)...i lit a smoke while he was doing all those and it only took me 5 sticks after he fnished it...hayop ang bilis na pulido pa...it had me wondering while driving after the fix...siguro kung may pakontes ng pinakamalulu "fight" na tao sa mundo...sigurado akong tayo mananalo partida na wala pang tanghalian...its just a waste our country never recognize our strengths...filipinos, not in general, dwell on dealing more with being modest and observant...we always fail to see that we all have the same trait...we create because we neccessate...being a poor country magnifies that...if it were up to me i wouldnt do what the americans do...they buy patents and ideas but never really had the real creative minds...sige nga think of a "real" american that has invented something really useful for the whole planet's sake...aber...yung pure blood ha...wala no...americanized siguro madami...anyways it doesnt matter who creates what or where that what was thought off...magaling talaga pinoy and thats it...

taboo....and the burger on the side

2005-03-03T22:27:00.000+08:00

i was watching NGC last night...well this morning, since it was 4...i was intrigued by the program...taboo...simply defined in layman's term as a norm that is considerable and endemic to just a locality that practices and embraces it...the episode was on manhood..that transition from slightly high-pitched shrieks to deep-voiced grunts...kinda reminds me of tim allen on home improvement...my mind works in mysterious ways - the show was about this but i was thinking of something else...it got to me eventually and the crazy thing was...they were connected...i was beginning to realize that deep down i was rejecting my inevitability...that i am over my so called "puberty prime" and is really floating between being a "mucho" and becoming a "barako"....the weird thing was the things that people do to prove their manhood...be it early marriage...jumping off a cliff tied to an equate and unsure vine...or placing my hands on a glove full of bullet ants...shared a distinct and principled comparison to the deeds that i have done...and yet that journey eludes me...the recognition from myself that i am passed that time of "eternal" and redundant youth...if there was such a thing...i slept after much pondering...it was really chaotic...i had no answer to that query...i cant believe it...stupid me...but then after a refreshing slumber it came to me..."ah tang ina ganun lang pala eh"...what i needed to lang pala was to relax...i remembered what my granny told me suddenly..."kahit pa malaki ang pinagkaiba nuon at ngayon...iisa lang ang dapat mong gawin at isipin para malaman ko kung kasukat mo na mundo...wag kang mabuhay sa nakaraan at sa kinabukasan...ngayon ka mag isip sa oras na to at dadating din yun"...my granma was right...to be someone "adult"...just go with the flow and be true to what you're thinking no matter what...if you live your life with your past and plan it too much for your future no sense comes...what matters is in between...tanungin ko kayo...do you love burgers with just the buns?

ang simula...

2005-03-03T00:50:00.000+08:00

sa bawat pagkakataon...sa bawat oras na nilalaan ng tao sa mundo...sa bawat galaw ng katawan at pilantik ng dila....nauuna palagi ang natural na ugali ng isang nilalang na mag isip ng higit sa kanyang kakayahan...oo nga sabihin na natin na kaya ka gumawa ng isang bagay ay para sabihing nagawa mo na yun...pero ang totoo sa sobrang kasabikan mo ay nakakalimutan mo na ang dahilan kung bakit mo nagawa ang bagay na iyon...ebolusyon...simula...na kahit gaano kasimple o kahirap ang isang pagkakataon...nagagawa mo pa rin...magsimula...sa isang bagay na kahit walang dahilan o meron pero di mo pa alam...tulad ngayon...nagsimula lang tong blogging na to sa isang "trip"...pero matagal ko nang gustong magkaroon ng ganito...kasi...dito ko malalagay yung sa tingin ko eh gusto kong ilagay...isa na namang "outlet"....bahala sa mga susunod....basta eto nasimulan ko na...