Tuesday, August 01, 2006

what it really means

disclaimer...this is fictional...well maybe not hehehe...this isnt personally for me...hehehe

damn it its raining again...why cant it be stopped? why cant one control it? does it want to be controlled? the past weeks ive been thinking about these things...sarcastic and ridiculous as it may sound, thinking about the mechanics of the phenomenon made me wonder if it is somehow connected to how one feels...earlier i was requesting a friend of mine to give me a topic to blog about, i set the idea as somewhat CHEERFUL (since i am feeling AFFIRMATIVE as of the moment and still do) but since MALAKAS KA SA KIN PARE, ill be doing this instead eventhough i dont feel writing it...ONE YEARNS WHAT ONE CANNOT HAVE...plainly from its description and simple logical analysis (ayan nagagamit ko na LOGIC ko hahaha) the line just written is etymologically known as OBSESSION...in this rational world "wanting someone na hindi mo alam kung makukuha mo" falls in the same category as that...locally it may be called PAGIGING MARTIR but considering the parameters of it (risking oneself to attain something that has no assurance whatsoever - if one gets it or not with the latter the higher probability) it cannot be even considered as a risk let alone a HEROIC BLITZ...love is a risk yes, and so is winning a fight or even a bet on your favorite team...people tend to be more inconsequential and less calculating when LOVE or MONEY or PRIDE is concerted...when this happens that is the time when LOSING or being at a LOST begins...the risk becomes a drive - not anymore the motivation that its supposed to be...kelangang MAKABAWI...kelangang HINDI MAHALATANG TALUNAN...kelangang ITAGUYOD ANG PRIDE...kelangang WALANG MASABI ANG IBANG TAO...no more personal contentment, just pitiful pride without direction...the FIGHT becomes a losing battle even before it starts...but considering all things there are outlets for one to win...if only one knew how to foresee them...sabi nga ni Sun Tzu...know when to retreat and learn from your enemy...RE-COMPOSE oneself to easily put it, it may be BUSHIDO shameful and worth a HARA KIRI but doing this is much better and less lethal...striking back after strategizing is the greates INVENTION man has made in the scales of personal attainment...

wanting someone na hindi mo alam kung makukuha mo is such a cliche, sorry for being blatant pare hehehehe...YOU SHOULD KNOW HOW, that is the key if ever you want someone in the first place...love has no natural course but yes it can be random and serendipidous...like an irrigation canal, if you dont know how to channel it then you wouldnt get any efficacy from it...you cant expect it to go your way without working hard for it...but if you WORKED hard for it and nothing really fruitful came out, then that is a sign...hindi kayo meant for each other...no more QUESTIONS...no more REASONS...and if one cant accept the happiness of own's supposed to be then that my friend is called OBSESSION...


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