Tuesday, August 23, 2005

angalan ang king ephew...A-koy I-sang J-apnoy na I-niipunan ng mga R-obot at O-kane...galing ng utol ko no talented...pweh Posted by Picasa

Monday, August 22, 2005

kahit ano...kahit para kanino

i hate it when things dont go my way...di naman siguro ako "tagusang-tingnan" para hindi kibuin kahit konti...naguguluhan lang kasi ako, di ko malaman kung naglalaro lang ba tayong dalawa...tingin ko parang nagsasayang lang ako ng oras sa yo eh pero ok lang malakas ka sa kin...wag nga lang ako ulit magsasawa sa yo at baka gawin ko ulit yung ginawa ko dati...parang awa mo na magdesisyon ka naman, hindi lang para sa iba kundi para na rin sa sarili mo...gusto mo bang palagi ka na lang nakatali sa tadyang ng ibang tao, tumayo ka naman sa sarili mong paa anak ng potah...kahit pa sabihin mong may silbi ka, meron nga sa sarili mo lang naman...paano naman ako? baka magsisi ka pagdating ng panahon...gusto ko lang naman malaman, malapit na kasi akong gumawa ng isang mahirap na hakbangin...ikaw pa naman ang napili kong isama sa mundo ko, kahit alam ko na isang malaking pasakit ang aabutin ko...sana maintindihan mo...

Saturday, August 13, 2005

eto ang makukuha nyo pag pinaghalu-halo nyo si superman, si astroboy at si mang erning (numero unong taskador sa quiapo - beggar for short)...presenting...tantananan...SuperNgalNgal - DaBog Wonderer!!! Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

...Mea Culpa...

what was it that made me cry just the other day? btw another post again for the journal...kudos to me...the stinking feel of an early mid-life crisis is beginning to beguile me...scary thought...as raf would say "thoughts could kill"...they really do...its been awhile since i have appreciated myself or should i say "pinasalamatan ko na buhay pa ko sa mundo"...slowly everyday i am starting to get the hang of things...yun nga lang wala na kong puwang sa ibang bagay na malapit sa pagiging "sosyal"...puta ang aga kong nagsawa sa pagiging bata - pero yung takbo ng pag iisip ko eh hindi pa rin nagbabago...i still crave the call of the wild "red" yonder and the palpitations of doing something menacing and irreversible...im losing the edge a quarter inch at a time...kahit pa sabihin nung iba na parang turumpo yung ikot ng buhay ko - tali lang ang katapat pero kahit kailan hindi mo pwedeng ipermanente sa pagkakatali sa "string" ng kahit ano (permanence...monotony...relationship) ewan ko kung bakit ako biglang naging "hermit"...i was really planning on a sabbatical but i never expected it to be this herculean of a task...knowing myself was really a lot of work...ang hirap palang mabuhay sa labas ng kahon - lahat ng kilos mo nababantayan ng pinakamasugid mong kritiko - SARILI MO...these past few years i have gone out the circle of my construed routine...and the sad thing about it is that the past is beginning to catch up with me big time...buti na lang...i always find solace in the truth that i can always live upon my own expectations...i dont care what other people think about me unless they bring fruit to my table and wine to my glass...oh i forgot about the "tear drop" question i asked at the start of the post...bakit nga ba?...siguro simula nang pumasok sa buhay ko yung tao na yun nag iba yung prayoridad ko...i started to "brake" down on my persona run...i began to run the mile more like a finisher rather a winner...is she the reason?...or are they the reasons?...yung pag iyak ko ba ay isang paraan para iparating ng tunay kong sarili na kailangan ko ng pagbabago...na gamitin ko yung kakayahan kong manipulahin ang sarili ko at ang mga taong nakapaligid sa akin?...or is it just a release - a way i think is the most effective in dealing with the stresses that i fail to feel or consider when i am active...ano pa man ang dahilan natuwa ako at kahit papaano ay nabawasan ang dinadala kong bigat sa loob...na ang sarili kong pagkakamali ay siya na ring mismong namamaraan para sa aking kapakanan...

Monday, August 01, 2005

Description of A Beau as a Song

what day is it and in what month this clock never seemed so alive I can't keep up and I can't back down I've been losing so much time cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to lose and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of you all of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right I'm tripping inwards you got my head spinningI don't know where to go from here cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to prove and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of you there's something about you now I can't quite figure out everything she does is beautiful everything she does is right you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to lose and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of you you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to prove and it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of you what day is it and in what month this clock never seemed so alive...

death wish...in case i never post a blog again panigurado napatay na ko ng may-ari ng pic na to...actuallly she is the current "interest" of my life...the cog in the wheel of my machinery...sorry GLAZE but i need to tell the world about you...to see the beauty that i see in you...(ano peeps pwede na bang pang "teenie-bopper" flick yung istorya namin?)...basted na kung basted hehehe (wala pa naman Posted by Picasa